Thursday, February 25, 2010

Thoughts from the One Changing the Diapers

In no particular order...

-- I spent some time this week with my friend Christine. She's from Canada. She fascinates me. I know, be careful right? If I spend time with people from other places, I might learn to think outside the box..

--Busy weekend ahead-- *Science day at Emma's school tomorrow. *Kenny Payne, long friend and missionary from Ukraine will be coming tomorrow and spending the weekend with us and speaking about the work that he's doing at the orphanage in Ukraine at church on Sunday. *Meal and service at the local mission on Sat. evening. * Service activity with the kids at church on Sunday morning..

-- I do not pride myself in being busy. It just happens often, that a lot of good, busy things fall at the same time and there is nothing that can be moved.

-- Boundries-- I do often find myself busy with things I shouldn't be. I don't understand why I feel like I'm responsible for making other's dreams come true. I think deep down my need to do that is a fear that God won't do what I think He should. I'm pretty sure that God responds to that by saying, "you were made in my image. I was not made in yours".

-- I fear that my children will inherit the above trait from me. I want much better for them.

-- My sister-in-law, Jan, recently recommended the book, Boundries: by Henry Cloud and John Townsend. I ordered it.. She's right. I need it.

-- I Love God, so passionately much.. Love and trust are not synonyms. I long to fully trust Him.

--there is a difference in bi-partisanship and compromise..
Bi-partisanship, sets opinions aside to do what's best for the whole.. Compromise tries, but fails, to meet everyone's desires and succeeds at meeting nothing.

--I think I'm a member of a bi-partisanship church.. for these purposes, see my definition above, not any other you may have heard.. I think our government could learn a lot from them.

-- My church is the closest thing I've ever seen to what I think God wants the church to be.. In one way, I hope they see that about themselves. In another way, I hope they never do.

--I'm glad we don't call ourselves a "bi-partisan church" the word is becoming tainted.. I'm sure it won't be long before it makes me nauseated to hear it.

--Our neighbor lost her mother unexpectedly this week. My heart aches for her and I can't get her off of my mind. I don't even know her that well but from the little interaction we've had, her family has come up a lot.. I can tell she loves them deeply. Please pray for her.

-- I haven't talked to my mother very much this week. Maybe I'm trying to lure her to visit.. When I did talk to her I rambled on about how I was born in a generational gap and that's why I have such a hard time figuring myself out..

-- Figuring myself out--- self-reflection is good... Too much self-reflection is actually self-centeredness. I feel like I've been teetoring on that edge lately.

--I want everyone to like me. I also want to not want everyone to like me.

--God couldn't have picked a better mate for me.. We compliment each other well.. It did not start out that way. Time and endurance has made that possible.

--My children are no where near perfect.. I thank God for that.. But I do think they are a perfect mix of Adam and me.. I would not change them if I could.

--I had a serious conversation this week with a kid that was in our youth group at one time. Kid isn't a good description because she's actually a beautiful adult. But still, I feel an indescribable closeless to those kids. I think it's because I witnessed a very raw part of their lives. It blesses me when they share it with me still today. I hope that continues to happen for the rest of my life.

--I think potty training Chloe will be hard.. I'm not really sure because I haven't really given it an honest try.. She'll soon be old enough to change her own diapers. I think it's part of my anti-mommy pressure stance. That and I don't want to have to think of a new name for my blog.