Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Chloe Annie....

She's really Chloe Anne, named after my mother. I don't know when I developed the habit of calling her that.

Not a whole lot of new information on her. She's still being her wild little self. No more fevers, no more rash so I'm thinking that at least that part of it was Roseola. We have a friend from church that is a nurse in the ER. He listened to her heart and could hear the irregularity. He said that it sounded like she had a sinus arrhythmia. Which I'm finding from all my reading is not that uncommon and usually isn't dangerous. He said that we will probably have to have an EKG and maybe even an Echo just as protocol. Which is fine with me because I would rather know she's okay than just guess that she is. And then if it's something more serious, I guess we'll know what direction to go.

Everyone keeps asking me how I'm doing.. I'm doing good. I've talked it out with God. On second thought, I don't know that it's my faith that is as much of a problem as my will to surrender. I know He is God, I know He has a plan but that doesn't mean I'm going to like it. And, if He lets something happen to my Chloe girl, we're going to rumble. That may seem blasphemous to you.. If it does, get off your high horse and read Psalms.. I've been sorting to through a whole host of emotions and I guess tonight's pick is feisty.

On a more serious note, When I re-read my previous post, I looked at the part about the church and then I looked at the part about Chloe and realized how random it all seemed and I want you to know that it was not. They are both very much connected.

I walked in there Sunday morning and I knew that my fears were going to be met with nothing but love and concern. One of our elders said the most beautiful prayer over her where he talked about all the things that have played out in my mind. He prayed for her future husband, and all the plans that He has for her. I got the sweetest e-mail from someone today. It seems as everyone else has it on their heart right along with us. I can't be certain where this path will lead but I know that we won't walk it alone. That kind of security means so much.

This video was taken before we knew anything about her heart beat. But now that I watch it knowing, I wonder if the problem could be not that she's not getting enough blood flow but that she's getting too much. At the end of most days, I'm the one that feels like a cardiac patient because of a full day of chasing her.

Blessings,
Dana



10 comments:

Holly said...

What a precious child. Hang in there, Dana. You are very strong. We will continue to pray for you guys.

Becky said...

precious girl! can't wait until june!! i've had 2 kids that have had echos and it's not a big deal (although getting her to lie still may be the issue lol!!) ekg's are easy...again, it's the being still part! my boys were mesmerized and keep asking to see chloe. post one of emma.

Allison said...

This video looks just like life with Riley. He's always been totally wide open, so Chloe trotting around and staying busy is totally familiar. I just thought that was pretty much how they all were. ;-)

The Tyree Family said...

Ohhhh...so sweet. I now think that she is definitely as busy as these boys of mine are. She seems much less destructive but, yes, just as active. I can certainly relate to your feelings :)
on a side note - did I give you that little pink outfit? It reminds me of an outfit of Anna's. Just wondering. btw- I love the little bows you put in her hair - that is so cute! I think it's neat to see that you do that daily - I usually only did that if we went somewhere :) you are a true girly girl :) very sweet!

Lynn Ellis said...

WHEW!!! What a bundle of joyful energy!!! You SHOULD ALL sleep well at night just after keeping up with her all day. I have watched this 3 times already! Love you all. - Lynn

Jay said...

THAT. VIDEO. WAS. SOOOOO. CUTE!!!Goodness, I could just eat her up.

Kinda makes me want another one. (shhhh)

Lindsay Norsworthy said...

What a little doll!

Anonymous said...

YOU amaze me! :)

I love you.

Kristen

lifewiththehairls said...

We are continuing to keep your family in our prayers!

Matt Wilson said...

ha ha...i love adam's "supportive" "Yeah Yeh...Good job" during patty cake.

I miss you guys so much. The video made me smile :)