Friday, November 04, 2005

So much on my mind, so few words

Wow, there are so many things that I'm thinking about and I'm having a hard time sorting them out. I'll give it a shot:

It's that time of the year. The weather is getting cold and people are getting down. I remember Lori (our old minister's wife) telling me that November is the worse time of the year. Lori, I miss Lori. I LOVE it here but I feel as I’m having a hard time actually developing close relationships and I’m really missing that spiritual mentor that Lori was for me. I know that it will come in time and that relationships like that don’t come over night but I’ll be glad to get past that point. I’m also missing my girlfriends. The other night, I just mentioned Pam’s name and started crying. I miss her. I hate that I haven’t seen her new baby yet. I hate that Melissa is going through all she is and I can’t be there. If you are here in WV reading this please don’t take this to mean that I don’t want to be here. I do. I’m so thankful that God led us here. I just have a hard time with the whole starting over stuff. Anyway.. Bad time of the year.. The statistics are something like: 50% more suicides occur in November and December than any other time of the year. I can see that others are down and I'm trying hard to fight it myself. However, Adam and I spent a whole lot of time the other night praying and I’m fully expecting things to perk up. Ok, now that I’ve got that off my chest, enough whining, there are lost souls out there!!

Emma… Thank God for her!! For her innocence, for the way she helps me appreciate the important things. We went to the playground yesterday to meet Julie and Anna and I was so proud Emma when she wanted to take one of the rings that Denise had put in her Halloween package to give to Anna. She decided that Anna would have the pink one and she would have the purple one. Anna reciprocated by letting Emma wear her necklace. When we left, they gave each other big hugs. It was so sweet and I’m so glad that she’s already learning to love her friends.

The other day, I was reading a bible story to her and there was a picture of Jesus and another man. “She said, That’s Jesus. Is that Peter? Maybe it’s Matthew”. It was very proud moment for me, realizing that she was really soaking up God’s word. I feel as though these days are flying by and I can’t soak enough of it up. She’s growing so fast. She’s going to be a teenager before I know it and that scares me to death. I know that I only have a limited time where I’m the biggest influence in her life and so I’m trying to pack in enough love and values to last a lifetime. I feel so inadequate for that job. God, please give me wisdom.

Last night, we went to Powell. I’m so excited about that ministry. God has put a mission field in our back yard. I’ve got some pictures from last night that I want to post and do a whole post about our planning session at powell but, I’ve got a big day today I need to get started on. The Cox’s are coming for dinner so lots to do. So be looking for the Powell post in the next couple of days.

Prayers for our ministry are appreciated!!
Love from Above,

Dana

13 comments:

Becky said...

Your little Emma is so smart. It is amazing what they know. Luke is not quite as verbal as Emma, but the things he comes up with or what he says that I don't know that he knows...it is amazing! I have been up here 5 years and still don't feel like I have great girlfriends. I hope the newness of starting over wears off soon.
love
beck

Jay Houston said...

Dana,

Thank you for saying all of that... I have lived in Albany for a little over three years and still feel that I have no mentor, or fabulous girlfriend connection with anyone.... I still miss my friends from HOME terribly, (Except Summer b/c she just moved here for the winter to do Mall stuff) and I feel so inadequate when it comes to fulfilling the task that god has given me of raising a daughter. Maybe we can help each other... even though we are 10 hours or so apart. I am sorry that you are down, If you need to talk, I am just a phonecall away.

Jay

Anna said...

I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now.. so am I. You're such an example to me and all the other girls in the youth group and that means soo much. I know great things will happen soon and everyone will perk up. Can't wait til tomorrow evening.=) I love you

Missy said...

Dana,
I understand how you feel. I have felt the same way nearly every time we have moved. Close relationships do take time and it is hard sometimes to be patient while they develop. We are so glad you and Adam are here! Emma,too! She is a doll baby! Please know that we would love for you to drop her by any time! Thank you for being such a blessing to all of the Spivys!

Anonymous said...

dana, im sorry your having such a hard time right now...i hope things get better soon..and im sure they will..im praying for you!
i love you! <3 sam

Kristen said...

I love you.

Rachel said...

Hey Dana! Sorry you're feeling the fall blues. I've definitely been there. Season changes always affect me like that, plus now I've got a lovely little sinus infection. Anyway, I just found your blog through your post on mine, which I haven't been keeping up with. Hang in there; I'll be praying for yall. Love ya!

Hannah said...

Hey
I'm sorry your going through a hard time. I'm so glad you moved here! Your such an example to all the youth group! I love you and you'll have lots of girlfriends here in no time! You have a wonderful personality and your a wonderful friend to everyone! I love you soo much!

Hannah

Anonymous said...

today was fun, i'm glad you went, i liked our talks :)

<3 Lindsey

Alexis Melsha said...

Hey! I know what you mean about missing people! I'm really excited because I get to go see the people I'm missing most this coming weekend. It's so tough to be in a new place and have to put yourself out there and find friends, but God always puts the right people in your life at the right time. All that to say, I very much know how you feel and I appreciate what you said.
If it helps anything, I'm 21 (almost 22) and my mom is still the biggest influence in my life. I'm sure Emma will always want to be just like her mom!
Love you!! Alexis

Anonymous said...

Dana,
Reading the comments made from the girls in your youth group sure does show the impact you are having on those girls! I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I understand how you feel, though, being that I just moved from Chicago I'm going through a lot of the same things! I know I live a few hours apart, but maybe we can help each other out! I can't wait to see you next time I come to visit Brian and Angie. Hope things get better. Call or email if you need to talk!
Love from Cleveland:),
Sara

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brandon said...

dana not only r u an inspiration to the girls, i think the rest of us look up to u too. i know i do. i do hope things get better in ur life, which it should since u have us around!!!! well ttyl