Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Begging for prayers

I'm exhausted.. I'm not sure that this is going to be coherent. I will surely write a more detailed post later. Adam's secretary and I went to sit with a friend from our church yesterday (wow, only yesterday it seems like forever ago) while she waited for the results from an MRI her little boy was having. Benign tumors run in their family. His older sister has one. They are typically outgrown but they were more concerned because this tumor is located in his head and he was swelling around his eyes.. We were shocked when the optomologist came out and told us that it wasn't that type of tumor (there is a name for this type of tumor but I am a completely ignorant when it comes to any medical terms and I can't remember it. Someone comment what it is if you know) and that she was suspicious that it was cancer. Just a few minutes later the doctor confirmed that it was cancer. He just turned two.. Just two weeks older than Chloe. He has had more cat scans, a biopsy and will have bone scans tomorrow. They are discussing starting Chemo this weekend. In just a few minutes their world has been turned upside down. They are awaiting the results of the biopsy to find out exactly what they are dealing with.. I keep thinking that I will wake up from this horrible dream. I can't imagine what his mom is thinking..

I of course cried like a loser. I am so frustrated with myself that I just become a blubbering idiot in situations when I need to be the strongest. Thank goodness for Adam's awesome secretary who not only is one of the most positive faith filled people I've ever met but is also a breast cancer survivor. She quickly grabbed us all together and prayed. I could have never gotten that prayer out. I must have skipped that chapter in my 'How to be a Minister's Wife" handbook. Please, please pray for this family. And pray for me to have strength when I need it for others..

Blessings,
Dana

17 comments:

Mandy said...

You are so not a loser. The fact you were there at the hospital with the family says so. I've been praying for this little boy and I will continue to do so.

Lindsay Norsworthy said...

That is so horrible. I will keep this family in my prayers for sure. If it makes you feel better, I am that kind of minister's wife too. I can never be emotionally strong in those situations either. People need people to cry with them too though. May God use you in mighty ways to bless this family during this difficult time. Blessings,

Lindsay

Nellie the Great said...

Sometimes being "strong" is being the person who cries when the other person can't. There's a reason God didn't make us all the same. :)

Dana said...

If that's the case Janell, I have you covered. I seem to always have a plentiful supply of tears! I love you!

Sunny said...

My heart breaks for this family. I will definitely be praying. I know that it had to have meant SO much to have you there with this family in that horrible time when their world was turned upside down.

Becky said...

were they thinking hemangioma and now thinking some sort of "blastoma". Please give as many details as you can when you have them. We will be covering this family and in particular this baby in prayers.

Dana said...

yes nurse Becky! hemangioma was what they were thinking (thanks :). At first, they did say neuroblastoma but apparently, that usually comes along with a tumor in the abdomen that wasn't there. They also threw Leukemia around for a while. They also found a lesion on one of his vertebrae but the bone marrow test (whatever they do) came back negative which I think makes them think it isn't Leukemia. And, I think they even said that they thought that it might be two different things at some point. The doctor came in today and said that they weren't sure what they were looking at and they weren't making anymore assumptions until they saw the biopsy. Which would have been a good idea in the beginning in my opinion. Hopefully, they'll get some more answers tomorrow. I'll keep you updated.

Lu said...

I thought about you yesterday and wondered if you were at the hospital all day.

You are not a loser and I think its fabulous that you don't hold back your emotions.

Continuing to pray.

Elodie said...

one thing i always loved about you dana was that i could count on you to cry. i'm such an easy cryer, i always felt silly crying in so many situations where i didn't even know the people envolved. but i would look for you and see you crying too and then i didn't feel like a looser! i think crying is part of your strength. it takes more strength to be tenderhearted then to be tough!

Anonymous said...

Dana,
I (she makes me sound way better than I really am secretary) am the one who was thinking "I so glad Dana is here, I could not done this one my own" Every time I was at a loss for words, you said just the right thing. "You" are the one who got me through. And the only reason that prayer came out of my mouth was because of shear panic and fear. Wait until you really get to know me, you will find out what a big chicken I really am!

Love you and your beautiful heart,
The chicken secretary

Michael and Hannah said...

I'm so sorry, Dana... there is nothing more heartbreaking. Our prayers are with the family.

Papakeith said...

You know we are praying for the family and those who minister to them. In all my pride for the work that you all do if I could spare your the pain of ministry I would. I I have always thought when you are not touch by the fear and pain of those you minister to yu have lost the gift of ministry. thank you for crying and loving and careing. These are all thing that make me know my son and granddaughters will never be without the love and compassion you supply. God be with you. I love you.

Kristin said...

Praying for this family...

Julie said...

I'll bet they were very touched at your emotion- it was probably really good to let that show. I think it is a strength to be able to wear your heart on your sleeve - it lets people know what a genuine person you are! I'm so sorry for them. I will pray as much as I can. I can't breathe myself just thinking about what they must be going through. It is very kind of you to share this story so that your community of friends can help to support them and pray for them!

Keri Najmola said...

Dana,
You are so very far from a loser! You are one of the most caring people I know and it is ok to show emotion. I would have reacted the same way. I will pray for this little boy to be well and able to enjoy the life God gave him. I will pray for his family to have strength and faith during this time and I will pray for you to remain strong and compassionate for those who need you.

Lynn Ellis said...

I'm praying for this little boy and his family. BTW, about that crying thing, I know just how you feel. I do the same thing. It must be a minister-wife thing. However, I do know (and every one who knows you knows) where your heart it - just in the right place. - Lynn

Anonymous said...

Okay, your big sister is crying just reading this. And I have not read it completely until now because I knew I was going to cry. I have prayed many times that God would make me less emotional. That prayer has not been answered. As a matter of fact, it has gotten worse. So, I have to consider it my gift, if He sees it so beneficial to increase it. You are a wonderful, caring person, and I know that you were a comfort to this mother. We are all praying and waiting on updates on this baby. Love you, Denise